Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Hard Times


See this photo? This is part of our backyard. My husband does a beautiful job. We have many raised beds that we have filled with vegetables. The roses are special Fourth of July roses that we bought when we got married four years ago. The incessant rain this year has been very difficult because I have been longing to spend the summer outside in our backyard. We got Noodlebug a sandbox and some other outdoor toys. We bought a dining set so we can eat outside. We dream of all the vegetables we will harvest this summer and fall.


All of that may be over. My husband lost his job yesterday. We rent our house from his [former] boss and I don't know if he is going to kick us out. It is hard enough to worry about losing a job. We were just making ends meet and I honestly don't know how we are going to pay our bills. What is so much worse is the prospect of losing our home. We moved into this house when we came home from our honeymoon. I brought Noodlebug to this house from the hospital. I always thought when we left this place it would be to move into a house of our own. Now, I don't know what will happen to us. The idea of losing our home and never getting to harvest all the vegetables that my husband so lovingly planted. The thought of leaving Noodlebug's room that my husband painted a month before the baby was born. The thought of saying goodbye to our neighbors and the trees that we love to watch as we sit in the backyard.


I can't bear it.


I know I need to "hand it over" to God. I know I need to have faith that we are going to be okay. We still have my job even though we lost 60% of our income yesterday. We are all on my health insurance so we still have that. But to be without our home is unbearable. It's just too much. I'm scared and I'm heartbroken.



Please send prayer and good thoughts.

6 comments:

KnittingReader said...

Amy, I am so terribly sorry. I wish I could hug you in person. Chris lost his job about 16 months ago, and it keeps getting harder and harder. We aren't making ends meet, even though I made more of our income.

xoxxoxox

Literary Feline said...

I am so sorry, Amy. I remember when my husband lost his job several years ago and the stress it put on us. We were fortunate that I was the main bread winner and that we didn't have children. So, I can only imagine how much worse you must be feeling.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Amy.

Carrie said...

(Hugs) I know how hard it is to "just have faith" when financial troubles hit. There is nothing that can make more anxious than money issues. I will be praying for another job quickly and for the home situation.

Marie said...

I'm so sorry Amy. I really hope things work out for the best and this turns around soon. what a terrible position to be in. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers!

Andrea said...

I know we don't know each other and I've only commented a couple of times, but I'm so sorry to hear about this. :-( I just said a prayer before starting to write this comment and I'll keep you in my prayers in the days to come. Keep us updated!

Diane said...

Amy,

I just read this post and wanted to you you know that my thoughts are with the 3 of you. I am hoping things work out for you.