life by candlelight

So, I found out today that my old college roommate got married. I am really happy for her because that is something that she has always really wanted. To get married, settle down, have kids. I saw the pictures and she looks really happy. But I also feel sad because I found out this information from a third party. We used to be such good friends and now she can't even tell me she's getting married much less invite me to the wedding. It doesn't make me mad. We don't really stay in touch anymore so it doesn't surprise me. But I hate the idea of friend drifting in and out of your life. I wish we wouldn't lose each other like that. It's really depressing. Now I'm depressed. And not even the sight of Mars outside my window can cheer me up.