I worry sometimes that I do not take time to appreciate and be thankful for the things I have. I try and pray every day but sometimes it gets lost in the shuffle. I need to take time every single day to say "thank you" for my healthy beautiful child. For my loving supportive husband. For my mom who takes care of all of us. For my home and my job. For my own health. For so many things.
I walked up to my building today and debated on taking the stairs up to my office or the elevator. I felt tired and out of sorts and started to head for the elevator. Then, I thought to myself about how lucky I am to be strong and healthy and ABLE to take the stairs. I shouldn't squander the opportunity because one day I might not have the option. I took the stairs.
I want to live mindfully. I want to be aware of all the blessings in my life. At the same time, I need to let go of some of my neuroses. Part of being mindful for me is that I can easily spin out of control such as not wanting Noodlebug to go to bed because I fear I am losing time with him. I hear other people's stories and I become painfully aware of how quickly everything I have can slip through my fingers. But...in this moment...right now...I am very very blessed. It's good to be aware of that.